Once upon a time you wanted to get close to The kind of girl with a damaged past In a fairytale darker than a slasher She dealt with things, moved a little too fast And she stole your eyes You wanted to get next to her But she’s trapped inside And she’s got a hex on her Heidi lives in a castle Her long red hair you’ll never hold onto Heidi’s trapped in a tower She’s way up there, and she doesn’t want you So you sat there, sadder than a puppet Without a hand to guide it along I came around and I saw you on the ground I picked you up and asked you, “what’s wrong?” And you said, “I just Wanted to get next to her” You’re in like and lust And she’s got a hex on her Heidi lives in a castle Her long red hair you’ll never hold onto Heidi’s trapped in a tower She’s way up there, and she doesn’t want you Heidi’s world is at battle And you don’t care But, oh, you think you do Heidi’s so much to handle She’s way up there, and she doesn’t want you So run away But you stand there, crying at her chamber door Away, but you’re still stuck on wanting more Oh, run away To the girl who’s been there every time But still, you stay stuck on Heidi When you should be mine Heidi lives in a castle Her long red hair you’ll never hold onto Heidi’s trapped in a tower She’s way up there, and she doesn’t want you Heidi’s world is at battle And you don’t care But, oh, you think you do Heidi’s so much to handle She’s way up there, and she doesn’t want you

I’m in control of nothing And you’re nothing to me I’m way beyond the shallows Of a dark and cloudy sea And every time I try to breathe, I suffocate again It seems I play the game No one was ever meant to win Every attempt is shot down Like enemy planes from the sky Oh, why can’t I Soar without crashing Or run without bashing Into walls that shouldn’t come down? Speak without cursing, Not think of the worst thing That could happen if I turn around? I’m worn out The bonds I’ve made are broken The last of my heart eroded And the waves carry me away, away The tide just seems to tumble As I stumble with each stare How can I see a shoreline When I know that nothing’s there? And every time I try to swim, I’m sucked beneath the foam Reminding me I’m in so deep That I’m truly alone Every attempt is shot down Like enemy planes from the sky Oh, why can’t I Soar without crashing Or run without bashing Into walls that shouldn’t come down? Speak without cursing, Not think of the worst thing That could happen if I turn around? I’m worn out The bonds I’ve made are broken The last of my heart eroded And the waves carry me away, away Each fathom closes in With darkness that I know The current defies depth Pulling me where I don’t wanna go It’s too late To throw a lifejacket on me Save me from who I’ve come to be I took on water in the sound Leave me be, I’m going down Like the shipwreck that I am You must be happy as a clam ‘Cause now I’m under more pressure Than you can imagine I can hold Every attempt is shot down Like enemy planes from the sky Oh, why can’t I Soar without crashing Or run without bashing Into walls that shouldn’t come down? Speak without cursing, Not think of the worst thing That could happen if I turn around? I’m worn out The bonds I’ve made are broken The last of my heart eroded And the waves carry me away

I’ve never seen you light up like you do when she is near And I can draw conclusions just as soon as they appear You don’t have to tell me, ‘cause I know I’ve never been so mixed up over things I can’t control But I am with the current, I can ebb and I can flow You don’t have to tell me, ‘cause I know She’s so pretty She’s smart and she is talented Oh, wow, she’s just like me I know, let go I hope she makes you happy And I really hope she cares And I hope you finally grow up And I really hope she’s there For you when the clouds get low And you feel you’re all alone And I hope she thinks about you Like I know you think of her And I hope you two can be All of the things we never were And I hope when it gets dark, She is still there in your heart Shining light in all the places I don’t know I hope she loves you like I love you so I’ve always known that you were gonna be a stand up guy And thankfully, you don’t see that I’m twisted up inside You don’t have to tell me, ‘cause I know You know that I am not¬ the type to do things like I should I’m tying up loose ends, I guess I did all that I could You don’t have to tell me, ‘cause I know She’s so intense She’s cool and she is funny Just like me, does that make sense? I know, I’ll go I hope she makes you happy And I really hope she cares And I hope you finally grow up And I really hope she’s there For you when the clouds get low And you feel you’re all alone And I hope she thinks about you Like I know you think of her And I hope you two can be All of the things we never were And I hope when it gets dark, She is still there in your heart Shining light in all the places I don’t know I hope she loves you like I love you so I know that you can’t really choose the people that you grow to love I know this wasn’t done on purpose, but it’s just a little rough To see the one who makes you know that there’s a heart inside your chest Be mesmerized by bigger eyes, who seems just like you at her best And I am sure that she is great ‘cause you have respect for yourself I’m just surprised that, over time, you grew to love somebody else I know that I am wanting answers, and those answers don’t exist And I would tell you, but I think you know exactly what you’ll miss Without me here You’ll miss me when I disappear I hope she keeps you warmer When the wind picks up outside And I hope she sees what I do When she looks into your eyes When you know that this is real ‘Cause nothing’s ever made you feel Like the way you do when she walks by And if you turn around You won’t find me, you’ve erased me I am gone without a sound Feel the storm upon your back You won’t have time to react ‘Cause your love for her, it was my final blow I hope she loves you like I love you so I hope she loves you like I love you so

Thought that you were black and white Thought I figured you out right But it turns out, you are so much more like me Thought you’d never come around ‘Cause you never made a sound But it turns out you hid where I couldn’t see Thought you couldn’t understand But then you held my hand And I recognized the tide turn in your eyes Thought the look upon your face Could have never been replaced By something other than indifference or pride But I saw a change, but I saw a change You let go like I’ve never seen At the speed of sound, I could not breathe For once, you let your heart into your head You let go like a rocketship You said, “crash and burn, to hell with it” You threw your hand in, I followed, you led Yes, I know it’s not like that But you can’t deny the fact That you’re fascinated by the way I am Yes, I know it’s not that way And I can safely say I’m alright if it does not happen again ‘Cause I saw a change, oh I saw a change You let go like I’ve never seen At the speed of sound, I could not breathe For once, you let your heart into your head You let go like a rocketship You said, “crash and burn, to hell with it” You threw your hand in, I followed, you led Never thought you’d come forth From your corner in your shadow Boxed up, scared of expression In fear of what could follow Swallow your pride And you come alive You let go like I’ve never seen At the speed of sound, I could not breathe For once, you let your heart into your head You let go like a rocketship You said, “crash and burn, to hell with it” You threw your hand in, I followed, you led 'Cause I saw a change, Oh I saw a change Thought that you were black and white Thought I figured you out right But it turns out, you are so much more like me

The lost boy wandered from neverland To a mountain he couldn’t climb He marched to the beat of a different drum And the beat was hard to find He would climb and fall, he would lose it all He was hard to understand This is the story of a lost boy Who wandered from neverland The lost boy wandered from neverland Scared of what he didn’t know Didn’t get too far ‘fore he realized He didn’t have nowhere to go He curled up and cried, ‘cause he knew inside That his fate was in his hands This is the story of a lost boy Who wandered from neverland And he thought leaving Peter and Tinkerbell Would save him from his nightmare living hell But alone and far from home he saw The shadow didn’t stray And he thought leaving Hook and his crew behind Would conceal the fact that he always lied About how he felt and how he dealt But it didn’t work out that way The lost boy wandered from neverland Stepping slowly out the door Timid, he felt incomplete Didn’t know what he was living for And the drum inside took him on a ride A spiral different from what he plans This is the story of a lost boy Who wandered from neverland And he thought leaving Peter and Tinkerbell Would save him from his nightmare living hell But alone and far from home he saw The shadow didn’t stray And he thought leaving Hook and his crew behind Would conceal the fact that he always lied About how he felt and how he dealt But it didn’t work out that way He went down, down, down And he drowned, drowned, drowned In his fear, in his tears And he couldn’t swim He went down, down, down What he found, found, found That this thing, lingering That was stopping him was him The lost boy wandered from neverland And he looked back every day He contemplated again and again What would have happened if he’d stayed And it hurts me so to say I don’t know Where his story’s gonna end This is the story of a lost boy Who wandered from neverland This is the story of a lost boy Who wandered from neverland

In a dream, you told me you’d do Anything to make it up to me It took a bit to register that Good things only happen in my sleep Now I know, in waking life You feel too sorry to apologize And though I’m better now I know I’d shed too many tears On your blue eyes I woke up a little out of my head Still stuck on the things that you said Just when I thought the plane was on the tarmac, The engine gave out and you came back And you said we could never be the same I concur, ‘cause I’m so done with this game That you say you don’t know how to play I don’t want you to stay I don’t want you to stay Now I’m up and dizzy thinking Being friends with you just isn’t fair Because you know what you did doesn’t Give you any right to still be here Now I know I shouldn’t answer When you ask me if I still hate you My response is convoluted Simply ‘cause I can’t admit I do And you’re not happy with or without me I’m pretty sure you’re someone I don’t need Long ago, you’d listen when I sing But now I know these words don’t mean a thing And you said we could never be the same I concur, ‘cause I’m so done with this game That you say you don’t know how to play I don’t want you to stay I don’t want you to stay You’re a poster in my room You are an emblem of my doom You are recurring like the whirring in my skull You’re a sock upon my floor You aren’t welcome anymore You are a catalyst who’s meaningless and dull Beautifully pathetic And this whole time that we’ve known each other It’s always been one hurting the other There are things in life you can’t take back And in time, I’ll learn to accept that And you feel like an early summer rain And I feel like an August hurricane I’m not sure what else to say But I don’t think you should stay No, I don’t think you should stay

The version of you that I like the most is gone Something inside you told your heart, “you better run” Now I am left with these thoughts in my head They worry me, follow me straight to my bed The version of you that I like the most is gone All that remains is the shell of the person you were Try to recall, but you came and you went in a blur I’m scared to find if I open my eyes That the man you’ve become was the one who’s inside So all that remains is the shell of the person you were Gone are the days where I knew you Gone are the days where you cared You were the one who could see through Me when I said I wasn’t scared We all move on, we all untie We bend to break, we bloom to die I try to find you, but you’re gone I walk around with the pieces of you in my hands How did it get here, that’s what I don’t understand I have tried tape and cement and glue, I’ve tried everything, but it never makes you So I walk around with the pieces of you in my hands Gone are the days where I knew you Gone are the days where you cared You were the one who could see through Me when I said I wasn’t scared We all move on, we all untie We bend to break, we bloom to die I try to find you, but you’re gone I shouldn’t waste my time Connecting dots to lines Solving mysteries that aren’t mine Gone are the days where I knew you Gone are the times where I tried Figuring out what got into You before we said goodbye We all move on, we all untie We bend to break, we bloom to die I tried to find you, but you’re gone I try to find you, but you’re gone

I can’t fight this feeling when the sun won’t rise I can’t fight this feeling when the tears won’t leave my eyes I can’t fight this feeling knowing I won’t sleep tonight ‘Cause my mind cant find it’s way home I can’t shake the pressure ‘cause it makes me sick I can’t shake the pressure, so I learn to deal with it And I learned to walk around with a constant spinning head Thinking I could deal with it on my own Follow me down, I won’t ask you to I won’t ask for what I struggle to find Follow me down, watch me break in two I put locks on the door, I can’t think anymore I feel like I’m haunted, like there’s someone there Everything feels cold, and I am always, always scared That I’m gonna fall back into what I fought to lose What I burned with the courage inside But I’m pushing through it, ‘cause I know I can I won’t let my life melt into sadness and quicksand I have more to show for every day that I have climbed ‘Cause for once, I can feel I’m alive Follow me down, I won’t ask you to I won’t lead you where I will not tread Follow me down, but what’s the use I put locks on the door, I can’t cry anymore The years are passing and the progress made And I’m finally grasping that these bruises, yes, they fade And I’ll find my peace, and maybe I will sleep tonight Even though I know I’m on my own I’ve found that it’s good to let go Maybe my mind will find it’s way home Yeah, my mind will find it’s way home

How many times must I get over myself Tally the lines and the space runs out Like the color from my face Every time I open my mouth And what will it take for my blood to flow without Boiling or freezing or draining out ‘Til I’m pale and a fail And pathetic like waterless clouds I’m aware and I know That cold fronts come and go And you can’t feel the sun If you’ve never felt snow But my hands have grown cold, And I’m thinking I should let go I’m over being tricked into thinking Someone’s listening, watching somewhere close Under my nose, as it typically goes, or went, But my time has been spent So I’m over buying, over lying To myself that if the shoe fits, I can run I’m clearly done, over & out Not once but twice did I get involved with The shadiest business, I could have sworn That he started it up, All it’s done is left me worn And not once but twice did he return to square one From him entirely this was born In his head, now it’s dead With the birth certificate torn Yes, I know, I’m aware That maybe nothing’s there And for the longest time, Oh, not once did I care But he led me here, Does he know that it’s unfair? I’m over being tricked into thinking Someone’s listening, watching somewhere close Under my nose, as it typically goes, or went, But my time has been spent So I’m over buying, over lying To myself that if the shoe fits, I can run I’m clearly done, over & out I feel like an idiot, a blithering idiot Why am I so embarrassed when I know I’m not the idiot? What was I supposed to think, what was I supposed to think? This would be so much easier if he had a brain to think But it’s whatever, stay clever like you clearly are Hopefully someone comes along who’s as oblivious as you are I’m over being tricked into thinking Someone’s listening, watching somewhere close Under my nose, as it typically goes, or went, But my time has been spent So I’m over buying, over lying To myself that if the shoe fits, I can run I’m clearly done, over & out I’m done, over & out